The reason I started this blog was to hold myself accountable for my goals, which included learning to code and edit photos… hence the blog. I have additional projects I’ve been working on and things I’ve been trying to learn, apart from blog related skills, but those have been taking a back seat due to a lack of motivation.
My lack of motivation has been a result things in my life both exhausting me mentally and using all of my energy to deal with. I’ve finally realised that that is not a good enough reason to not improve myself and make the most of the wonderful life that I have been blessed with. I have spent numerous days sitting around and doing nothing, because I couldn’t bring myself to do anything except think about the things that end up draining me both mentally and physically.
A… I’m not sure what to call it… let’s go with –> “life motto” that I’ve heard many times from different people is that a day where you don’t learn something, is a day you’ve taken away from yourself. If you don’t do something to better yourself or those around you, the day has been wasted. As I don’t like making excuses for laziness and not getting what I want to and need to do done, I realised that something needed to change. Recently, I was reminded of that “motto/mentality” and with that, I have decided to stop wasting my time. Not to sound too cliche, but I have had the epiphany that time is precious and shouldn’t be wasted. With that being said, if something is keeping you from living your life, you need to stop putting so much energy into it and start caring more about yourself and living your own life the way you want to. What I’m going to do is just let the situation be. If it improves, then I will embrace it and if it does not improve, it doesn’t fit into my life. I don’t want to look back on my life and feel like I let too much of my time be wasted by something that is out of my control. Coming to that realisation took longer than I would like to admit, but for once in my life, I’m going to be a bit more selfish and start putting myself first.
Now to put some of my “projects” out there…. hello accountability…. Coding (HTML for blogging and python?), Photo and video editing, finish learning french and swedish, learn a new song on the piano and flute, make a budget and stick to it, start studying for GMAT, get back into shape and train for a half marathon, get back into meditation, and perfect my croissants. Putting those goals online won’t affect anyone, as I doubt anyone will end up reading them, but I’m doing this for myself. If this happens to help someone else realise that they are in a rut due to circumstances out of their control, that would be wonderful, but if no one else sees this, then I would still find that wonderful.